Psalm 139

Search me, O God, and know my heart;  test me and know my anxious thoughts.  Point out anything in me that offends you,  and lead me along the path of everlasting life. This hits me and it hurts. I wonder why sometimes it feels as if I am being tested over and over again...the same test. I realized that God will keep putting the things in front of me that need to be removed from my life. Anger, revenge, spite, lust. Whatever the test may be...I am not passing. God knows what is in my heart, but others may not based on what I actually show them. He doesn't want the real me to be hidden under my ugly flesh. He wants me to show Him to others, not me. He wants me to be offended so that I will stop offending. He wants me to feel anxious, so that I will learn to trust Him.